Happy 47th National Day

three... two... one... ... ... [silent mode] hehehe~ To be honest, up till now I'm crunching the shit outta my brain to relate the countdown with National Day. What's the significant of it? Do we really need to gather ramai2 and wait for the 31st August's 12 a.m bell tolls? Then what? Jerit 'merdeka!!'... Lepas tu...~? For me, the only people yg betul2 deserve to do that ialah mereka yg hidup pada 31st August 1957. I repeat, 1957. Because they were colonised on 30th, and then they breathe the air of freedom the next day onwards. For us, we were born free! So why bother celebrate our freedom dgn countdown? We don't have to 'celebrate' it. We have to think how to pertahankan our freedom. I see 'countdown' is not appropriate for it. Sama la macam bila mak kita beli nasik lemak for breakfast. We do celebrate the 'arrival' of the nasik lemak, but we don't continuously celebrate it. We have to finish it! We may think how mak kita beli nasik lemak tu. Berapa harga sebungkus? Mak gi beli naik apa? Beli dgn saper? But we really have to eat it rather than look at the nasik lemak and keep celebrating it. Then after that, we'll say..."thanks ma' for the nasik lemak~" Well, maybe we're not celebrating it the right way. Plus, naa... we all tau kan apa muda-mudi alaf baru buat di mlm merdeka. Aaa... apa aku merapu ni?! I'm not patriotic enough, am I? huhu~ Anyway, Happy National Day to all Malaysians!

As for me... I don't really bother about it. Not to say that I don't love my country. It's just that... I'm not very fond of this countdown stuff. National Day tahun lepas, I was in JB, Msia. Most of my friends went to Dataran JB to celebrate merdeka. But me and 2 other friends, went to studio and been jamming like no one's business. No cares of what happen outside. Yang aku tau, mlm tu hujan lebat. Pity them, basah kuyup di malam merdeka. Anyway, I drove to the Dataran at 3 a.m. Saja nak tgk apa event yg ada kat town. As far as I remember, nothing much sbb hujan. Tapi jln jam giler jgk. Heh~ Man, talk about jamming... I really miss my bandmates! Apa khabar korang skarang eh? We planned to release demo, tak jadi. We all parted our ways. I even wrote couple of songs. Tapi dah berkulat agaknye lagu2 tu. Hope you guys improvise 'em! Hey, aku ada simpan lagi gmbr2 masa jamming mlm merdeka last year. Haha~!! I'll attach them here!

Oh good Lord~! I thought today'll be boring day for me but it wasn't. Hari ni pegi lepak rumah Auntie Roy dgn Amen. Tolong dia potong rumput. Then she cooked dinner for us. Yumm~! Baru aku tau yg Auntie Roy ni die-hard fan Liverpool. Keh keh... she asked me, "so you're Liverpool supporter too, Arep?" I said, "support la but not to say die-hard. It's just that I grew up reading football news in times of Liverpool era, so that makes me support Liverpool more than other teams" Keh keh... padahal dalam hati, mmg aku die-hard fan Liverpool pun! Saja je cover macho depan dia... Hehehe~ Pinjam CD Kopratasa dgn dia. Haahahah~ dah lama aku nak dgr Kopratasa... ada jgk kat Bradford ni. Best, best~ Err... arr... dunno what to type dah... OK la, that's all for today... piss off, luv~!! hehe...

Get It Over With, Man!!

Yeay~! i'm so happy because i only got few hours to go to end this lame & stupid weekend! Apsal ha? Kalau weekend je, sure rasa boring maksima. Hari lain boring jugak, tapi takde la seboring weekend. Aku rasa sebab weekend adalah hari cuti. So, teramatlah ruginya cuti jika tidak diisi dengan aktiviti2 menarik. Tapi apa lah yang menarik yg boleh aku buat kat sini eh? Haa...~! Aku tau sebab apa boring! Sebab pokai! Hahahahaa~~ Cuba kalau duit tgh lebat. Sure tak boring punya... huhu~

Well, actually petang tadi adalah majlis ceramah sempena Isra' Mikraj di bulan Rajab ni. Oleh kerana ada makan free, I couldn't resist..hehe~! Ye la, dah le tgh pokai, ada pulak yg offer makan free. Saper tak mau? So, dengan penuh keikhlasan di hati utk mkn free, aku menapak ke Masjid Dar Arqam tu. Tu dia... wajah2 yg dah agak lama aku tak tgk. Abg Norji, Abg Halim, Abg Mat Nor, Abg itu ini... tapi aku sekor je yg bujang? Uiks~? Apa jadah nye... mana pegi yg lain2? Tapi bila aku pikir2 balik, sapa la sgt yg bujang nyer... Tak kisah laa. Janji makan free! hahaha~

Right now, I'm doing nothing... just sit in front of the PC, update this 'stupid' blog while listening to some cruising musics. Kat bawah kang, ada aku listkan lagu2 yg aku layan sejak dari awal aku taip nih sampai la aku nak post. That's my mood of music for tonite~!

from 8.43 pm:
-Love Is (Stevie Nicks)
-That Day (Natalie Imbruglia)
-Song For A Winter's Night (Sarah McLachlan & Jewel)
-Sick And Tired (Anastacia)
-Selling The Drama (Live)
-In Relief (John Frusciante)
-Like A Stone (Audioslave)
-All Out Of Love (Air Supply)
-Hey Baby (Bruce Channel)
-Freshmen (Vervepipe)

OK, at first... when I started this blogging thingy, I'm not supposed to write this kind of stuff. But I ended up writing it anyway. Damn~! This'll be no more privacy in my life after this! Hey, you readers~!! Close this blog! Please be kind to bugger off and come back later, okay~! Hehehe~~

p/s- Cis~! Esok Bank Holiday... cuti jugak lagi... aduiihh~ Bosan jugak lagi esok! Tapi aku bukannyer keje pun... apa yg aku risau lak pasal cuti2 ni~?! Sewel arr lu!

Bye Bye Baby~

Woke up thinking bout you today
Why does it have to be this way
We drove each other crazy
Bye bye babe
Bye bye baby
Well I guess it's over and it's done
We had some good tiimes and we had fun
We drove each other crazy
I'll always love you
Bye bye baby
Babe bye bye
Bye bye baby
Don't you cry

The Future

Aahh...~ dalam 2 3 hari ni, aku rasa down semacam je. Aku pun tak tau kenapa. Maybe sebab aku tgh berada dlm kesempitan. Yeah, I guess I'm now having such difficult time that I don't know whether I could ever manage it or not. Anyway, aku sentiasa anggap benda2 ni sebagai preparation of future. Perhaps, the most pain preparation hopefully for a better future ahead. Ckp pasal future, aku tak tahu camana la future aku kang. Impian? Harapan? Angan2? Ckp pasal angan2, mmg byk! Impian? Impian bagi aku hanyalah sesuatu yg agak mustahil, whereas angan2 bagi aku adalah permulaan kepada harapan & usaha. Harapan comes first in my life priorities list.

Bila tgk kawan2 lain dah berjaya, perasaan bercampur-aduk. Downgrade, happy, jelaous, demotivate, bersemangat, lapar, horny... entah la~!! Oh ye, sebelum terlupa. TAHNIAH buat rakan2 aku yg berjaya meng'konvo'kan diri Sabtu baru2 ni di IIUM. Seriously, aku sedih sgt. First, aku pernah janji dgn Boey, aku akan menghadirkan diri hari dia konvo. Tapi, aku tak dpt pegi sebab aku kat sini. Sorry Boey... Second, ni lah batch terakhir kwn2 seangkatan dgn aku di Gombak tu grad. We've been through every joy and pain, tapi aku yg berundur mengalah. Aku tak dapat terus berjuang bersama2 di Garden of Knowledge & Virtue itu. If I hadn't quit 5 years ago, I might end up graduating with you guys! But I chose the hard way.. and I have no regret upon it. Apa pun, TAHNIAH sekali lagi utk korang. Especially Boey, Qunut, Slam, & Sawad. You guys made it (with honour!) despite of all difficult times we had, eh? TAHNIAH jugak utk Arin, Pett, & Skun walaupun korang naik kapal lain.Still korang berjaya jgk. Aku? Entah la... the future still seems to be uncertain for me.

Kadang2, aku terfikir... what makes us happy in our life? Nice-paid job? Happy family? Sweet & romantic love? Ah... don't talk about love at the moment. We'll talk about it some other day. Money? Oh... obviously money is everything~! Org kata duit bukan segala2nya dlm hidup.But it is everything the way I see it at the moment. What makes me happy? Bagi aku, kalau aku buat satu2 kerja yg aku really enjoy doing the work... that makes me happy enough. Amal ada citer kat aku pasal adik dia Asma. Asma is so in love with her work even kalau sakit demam pun, she insists nak pegi keje. She really enjoy her work! Man... I wish I could be in her situation one day soon. As for now, I have to admit that I'm not enjoying what I've been doing for years. Aku mesti ubah sesuatu...

Next month penentu segala2nya. Next month merupakan transitional period bagi aku melakar masa depan. Masa depan in which can really2 makes me happy~! Walaupun turning point yg akan aku lakukan ini maybe akan dipandang sebelah mata... aku nak turn jugak. Aku nak pusing jugak~! Kona oii... kona~!! Kiri ke kanan? Tgk le map, bingai~!!

Hari Ahad

uuhhh~~ sunday bloody sunday... sepatutnya hari ahad ni hari best, tapi sunday seems to be the most boring day here. well, for me at least... bloody boring. expect tomorrow won't be this boring.. just depress je. Just another manic monday... ho hooo.. (The Bangles)

Guitars

Aku ni jenis suka main gitar. Aku takde le terer giler macam Man Kidal, tapi boleh la setakat nak hiburkan diri sendiri tatkala duka lara. Main gitar ni, memang melalaikan. Ehehe~ Angan2 aku sebenarnya nak beli gitar karen barang sehelai dua. Tapi duit takde lagi. Ni yg tgh giler nak kumpul duit nak beli gitar nih.Mana la tau kot2 bila dah besar esok2 boleh jadi artis. Artis jalanan pun takpe ler...hahaha~!! Gitar2 impian aku ialah:

Grestch Falcon White	Fender Telecaster